"Gabby, if you're doing drugs or drinking, you can always talk to us."

God. My parents did one of their weekly "we're her if you need us" talk. Every damn week. And the best thing is they actually think I'm the child that needs the most help in our family. Yeah, maybe I started cursing sorta young and being a bitch, but guess what, my two older siblings who I am supposed to immulate were cursing around me when I was 8. Is it a surprise to anyone that I started? Especially with my mother also cursing a lot?

But despite the fact that I have never really gotten in trouble or done shit; despite the fact that both my bro and sis have drunken themselves into the hospital; despite all that, I'm the kid thats screwed up. Right

You know what both my idiot sibling (love em to death) did? First it was my brother. He was 17 at the time. We got a call one night 'round midnight (he'd been out with friends) that my bro was in the hospital. Not only was he in the hospital, but for two minutes he was legally dead. He was then in a coma for a few hours. He almost died several times during those few hours. We could do nothing. It sucked. The first thing he said when he woke up was "I'm sorry". And because of that, I've forgiven him for being an idiot. And because I almost lost my brother, I've told him I love him whenever I can.

It was alcholol posioning.

Next was my sister. Two months after my brother nearly kills himself, she's away in university. My mom has to fly up there and finds her in the hospital. Alcholol posioning. No where near as bad as my brother's. But she never, ever aplogised. Not to my mom, not to my dad, not to me. She saw how much we all cried when Toble when into the hospital. She saw us fall apart around the idea of one of us dying. And she was still stupid enough to do the same damn thing.

Drink too much.

So here's my agrument to my parents:

1) Drugs screw people up, I have no intention of doing them.

2)I hate the smell of smoke, like hell am I going to actually smoke.

3)Drinking nearly stole my bro and sis from me, so despite the fact that my friends drink regularly, I have no intention of drinking anything besides champagne or wine during holidays.

Gabby